struggling a bit today...

it's taking all of my willpower to refrain from being nice as well...

it's his birthday today you see. i would have spoilt him rotten today and been taking him to a-town for fringey goodness this week... instead i am going alone.

thought i didn't care, i obviously do. damn emotions!

anyhooooo... watching 'smart people' for the second time, as the first time i didn't really watch it properly, but as you can probably tell again i am not watching it properly! BUT i will say that i think it's quite a good interesting movie indeed, they're all a bit disfunctional. i like that.

can't wait til they fix the roof properly then i can set the bloody office back up properly!
well set it up PROPERLY for the first time i guess. starting to move in the right circles i feel... it's taking me a while but i know the year of the darned earth ox is upon us so it will not be easy for many of us.

oh and it's so darned hot again today as well, must be mid 30's at least... and not much air moving. quite unpleasant. yukky.

have a great day anyways folks!
xJ

pappy smurfday to Tor... pappy smurfday to Tor...

Sammi, Tor, Moi

we went for a little adventure to the Merthyr Bowls Club to have some bevs for Tor's birfday on Wednesday night... we had fun.

Sammi has loaned me a hair straightener so I'll have a play with it later today and see how random my self hairdressing skills are!

Have been playing on ebay, putting up some books et al. Also still waiting for my roof to be fixed and it's getting worse and worse by the day. Eek!

Planted some capsicum (pepper for you americans), basil and poppy seeds, hopefully they'll all come up trumps. Not going too badly for someone who has never grown Broccoli or Carrots before. I have had to erect a make-shift shade structure for the broccoli because they do get too much sun in the afternoon. Darn it I thought I had sussed it properly. Oh well we shall see how they go!!

Oh... and I got a 280 phone bill for all the confused calls i made after shitty shitty bang bang with boy. grrrr. double grrr.

but i'll get a new phone next week with a bonus PSP so that will make me smile momentarily.

have a gorgeous day.
xxJ

so i made it to thirty...

and it was a freakn scorcher of a day today... crispy fried julie.



anyways, i wish i had have been in adelaide for my birthday, it would have been nuts and fun as heck, but having a bit of a gathering next weekend instead on a non-school night.


so... a recap of thirty years in the life of me...


thought i was finishing high school with no issues then like term 4 of my final year get told my curriculum is all screwy and that i wouldnt actually get a certificate.


a year later got pissed off when they sent me a letter saying 'we want to know why people like you dont finish high school' and rang them going 'well get your freakn counsellors to sort their shit out...' and then they decided one of the subjects that i had done DID meet the new curriculum requirements and that they'd give me the certificate after all. tossers.


went on a cruise to vanuatu and noemea with a few girlfriends... oh i have never drunk so much in two weeks EVER before or EVER again!


put on so much weight and lost my ability to feel after dating a complete and utter wanker for like 4 1/2 years... ho hum...


got screwed by the government job i had had with much success for some time so ended up going into private enterprise... and then like back into another government dept. did temping, took some jobs that were supposed to be permanent and got made redundant from one and quit a few...


completed ten years or there abouts on community radio...


managed to interview some awesome people... richard terfry aka buck 65, adam hills, tripod, muffin and karen from brassy...


saw some amazing gigs... the number one gig still has to be elvis costello...


spent lots and lots and lots of time at the rhino room...


moved to brisneyland from radelaide kind of just for something to do, and seemingly got stuck in a rut.


went to america for a few weeks to visit my friend in colorado, go to disneyland and see new yawk...


found out what an anxiety attack feels like... didn't much like that and hope it never happens again.


went to malaysia, KL and penang with kirst and had a wicked fun time...



hmmm... more later but i will start a little "30 things i have never done..." listing...


I HAVE NEVER

1. eaten crab...
2. taken hard drugs...
3. jumped out of a plane... bungee'd or anything related...
4. ended up in hospital...
5. been on a motorbike...
6. gone on a skiing holiday... probably because i can't ski...
7. had a speeding fine...
8. sat in first class on an aeroplane...
9. done anything so embarrassing i haven't been able to show my face somewhere...
10. been married and therefore never divorced...
11. owned a dog...
12. owned a set of decks (you know dj record players)...
13. had my luggage lost on a flight...
14. set foot on the moon...
15. been to the outback...
16. had a magazine subscription to something terribly girly...
17. run a maraton (i can't really run)...
18. had a spray tan...
19. gotten a tattoo...
20. had anything other than ears pierced...
21. shaved my head...
22. written off a car (but i have hit a roo before)...
23. worn anything worth more than about $150... probably less...
24. eaten so much i've thrown up...
25. owned an album by delta goodrem (gag)....
26. owned my own home...
27. been so completely broke i've had to pawn anything...
28. not had a roof over my head...
29. won anything significant on the lottery...
30. been so calm... as i am now... (writing this nov 13, 2008)

much love, frivolity and fun in the pants.
xJ

very frustrated and very torn in two...

well you know... i'm not sure how much to really write about how i feel right now...

i can say i'm pretty darned tired for no good reason...

and that i'm completely torn in two as to where i belong... i like queensland, i do, but the people that know me and love me the most are nowhere near... and it makes me sad.

maybe its the turning 30 thing... i know i should go home and celebrate it with my friends but to be honest, how can i currently afford that... simply, i can't.

that really sucks we'd have such a mad time, indeed.

hmmm.... xJ