because i think i just worked something out...
as you get older you all recognise that time actually moves terribly quickly...
hence, the reason that my mind is still bouncing around like a yo-yo is that it feels like it wasnt that long ago.
when the reality of the situation is that its taking me just about as long as the actual 'relationship' lasted itself to get out of the funk.
sometimes i guess you think you know people... when in reality you dont know shit.
so i wipe my hands of it all. numbers have been deleted. i am giving up trying to be nice. etc. etc. and seriously trying to get on with my life.
so much has actuallly happened since then when i think about it. i have done heaps of stuff, fun stuff, hard work, and made quite a bit of progress personally.
besides that, i keep meeting rad people who i love and they don't need a sad sack around ruining their chi either.
he never ever saw me angry, few people do, it usually takes a lot for me to actually yell, but if i saw him now i'd give him a piece of my mind. tenthousand.
i mean you have to be pretty stupid to use your womans computer...
thankyou thankyou to s, s + c for all of your support. i love all three of you crazy ladies. lots.