bits n pieces...

1) how do you read the sydney morning herald? i mean really, it's like a massive piece of butchers paper!!

2) i haven't been watching American Idol religeously, but thank mashugana Fantasia won. Damn, she can sing! you go girl.

3) we need a fucking revolution man!

from 28/5...
it occured to me whilst sifting through a pile of junk and talking on the phone a few days ago, that I broke up with my ex (so far, the only real 'adult' relationship I've had) nearly 4 years ago.

Which leads me to a new vox pop.... #3 i think, but whose counting...??
Do you think that the time in between serious relationships is generally equal to that time SPENT in the relationship?

I mean I know 100% of the time this isn't going to be the case... and though I don't think of that time unless it's to make comparisons when others experience similar things... I wonder if my subconscious has been giving me all of the barriers I need to get in the way of letting me find someone else... eg. giving me tunnel vision.

Tunnel vision with me is a terrible thing. I wind myself up and up over these intense friendships/relationships til I start to fall apart (like at the moment). Currenlty though I am also in the midst of what my "therapist" calls a 1/4 life crisis.
xJ

is You is?

Genuine Electric Latin Love Machine: Introduction the Neat Beat
Brian Setzer: Rat Pack Boogie
Woody Allen: Vegas
Paper Tiger: Castle in the sand
Wolf + Cub: Hands fall down
Williams S Burroughs: Meeting of international conference of technological psychiatry
Compay Segundo: Chan Chan
Billy Vaughn: Forever
Bloodstone: Natural High
Miriam Makeba: Baya Jabula
Viper Squad: Neon Dawn
MKB: Heatman
Micatone: Belgien/I'm leaving anyway
Beat Smugglers: Are you ready?
Al Caiola: El Flicko
Colorblind: Second Chance
Rachid Taha: Valencia
Richard Easton: The Underground Sea
Michael Franti: Yes I will
The Masters Apprentices: Got my mojo working
Manu Chao: Promiscuity
The John Barry Orchestra: On her majestys secret service
Marvin Gaye + Kim Weston: It takes two
Cornelius: Drop (Kings of Convenience mix)
Kit + The Widow: Other Womens Husbands
Red Monika: The Aches

xJ

perhaps perhaps perhaps

i love that doris day song... it's so romantic and such a beautiful slow dance song.

hence using it in strictly ballroom i guess...

*brr* i am actuallly cold. I opened up some windows to let some fresh air in here, but it's making my hands go purple.
damn to cold weather.
*closing a window*

i am feeling much better today. have been laden with flu all week. i blame a guy at work. he's like "oh yeh i've had that for 3 weeks"... i say "oh, so it's your fault is it?"

this is the guy i dig quite a lot, and, seemingly so does another work colleague. I discovered this at a party over the weekend. We both agreed his girlfriend is boring and he should date younger women. ie. both of us. or at least one of us.

hehe.

xJ

finished one book...

Stupid White Men by Michael Moore.
And a damn fine book it is too.

Keep up with the man's fine work at www.michaelmoore.com

My heater started sparking at me last night, so I quietly shat myself and turned it off without electricuting myself. There's another $20+ i didn't need to spend on a little heater.

poo :(

Okay, back to cleaning my house!
xJ

from a few days back...

20/5: Next month sees me increase my jobs to 3!! Holy snorkel! Now this might sound insane on top of the volunteering (which I'm not counting in the three), however the third job is door-bitching every Thursday for 4 weeks. I must say I feel I am an excellent door bitch; I haven't done it for a while but I am sure it's something you never lose your flair for.
Constant sarcastic throws of 'nope, dont believe you, show me your ID' and heckles of 'come one, come all' shall ensue I am sure.

en·sue ( P ) Pronunciation Key (n-s)
intr.v. en·sued, en·su·ing, en·sues
To follow as a consequence or result.
To take place subsequently.
(Courtesy Dictionary.com)

21/5: I've been thinking some more about this business opportunity that I may or may not have available to me (depending on what Mr Bank Manager has to say probably). I do want some feedback because... well the main problem I can see is that I have been setting my sights on moving to Brisneyland. If I were to purchase this business with the intent of becoming an owner/operator, it's not likely that I will be going anywhere.

I like the idea of Adelaide as a place to settle, but in between time; now; when there is just me, I feel I really should be taking advantage of the fact I can travel/move etc without burden. And yet, this said, I would like to go to Brisneyland but is it going to change enough circumstance to keep me satisfied, or make me more miserable?! I guess that's the risk you take with everything really isn't it?

I feel lonely, I feel lost, I feel that I am without direction, I feel without a career! And I feel like I need a good large kick in the pants.

There are a bunch of things I need to find out about the business before I make my final decision on it. The person only wants to sell it to me now though, which is interesting consdiering they hardly know me (though a friend is already employed there so so partly knows me). It's making my head hurt!
waah.

today: I wrote a really emotion filled e-mail last night to my friend who is leaving soon. I think it's said everything I need to say (nearly). I mainly want them to know how much I will miss them when they go, as they are such a strength and has this amazing way of making me feel protected and safe when I'm around him.

This said, my dreams last night were filled with all these visions of closeness between us. Not sexual at all, but just the fact that we do find comfort in each others company. I'd like to think that we do. I hope he feels that.

I don't want him to go, but at the same time would never try to stop him. He needs this.

Damn. I didn't want to make myself cry, and I just did. Fuck me.
xJ

this stops now...

i got the most inebriated I've been in a long time yesterday, and it really was a case of one too many. My night rocked until then.

This stops, right now.

Somethings got to give damnnit!
xJ

Flash those pearly whites!

(written down earlier today)
I'm finding it really difficult to smile. Just now I ran into the person I have desperately wanted to see for over a week. They asked me what was wrong and I make an excuse that is nothing like the actual reason.

I had a fully tops weekend catching up with Pipstar and listening to Buck 65 and Blonde Redhead on the way across the country. The sky is so magnificent in the middle of nowhere, you can see the stars so clearly. How dry our farms are really hit home out there too. Conservation organisations being ignored the way they are is just ludicrous. This country is seriously running out of water.

And another thing, if you're not already, please consider car pooling, cycling, walking or catching public transport more often. I assume the reason fuel is so expensive at the moment is that there is less of it?! I use approximately $10 of fuel every 3 weeks. The rest of the time I'm on buses or on my bike and consistently walking around.

This Adelaide City Council Youth Advisory thing I did last week was great, there's another on tonight. I would like to suggest that they try making Adelaide City the Eco-Capital of Australia. I mean our recycling programs are good and always evolving as industries develop, but I'd like to see more.

When I worked for the Waste Management Co I learned quite a bit and encouraged as many people as I could to recycle as I could see where products were going and how the new industries were sometimes desperate for certain types of recyclables to keep their work going.

Ok, now I'm off on a tangent...

My initial point was that I need something to make me happier. I'm very happy I'm reading again, nearly done with Stupid White Men.

I think I've lost a little weight, I'm definately more conscious of what I"m eating.

I feel uncomfortable with some friendships at the moment, and terribly comfortable with others.

I'm still slowly culling the items I own to live a more simplistic life style.

I'll be practising some more new receipes on Saturday, because a girl from where I'm temping is having her 21st and I offered to whip up some stuff...

(and written right now)...

I just feel there has to be more.
I just saw a friend who had come back from Paris. He loved it. Perhaps I should go there?

I don't know where I belong, and it's making me crazy, but I don't think it's here... as much as I love having my friends and family close by, this place isn't stimulating my brain enough anymore...

Life certainly is what you make of it, I've just got to bloody well make something of it!

xJ

We went to IKEA!

and you didn't!

So there!!

back in one piece *takes a bow*.
xJ

on an adventure...

yes tomorrow morning, very bloody early i might add, i am off to the land of Syd-e-ney to retrieve Miss Pippa from the evils of Coffs Harbour.

I look forward to seeing a few friends, and shopping til there is no money (again) left in my bank account.

What a better way to spend a few days...

So... in the meantime:

OUT OF OFFICE ASSISTANT...
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On Top of the World
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Rhubarb Purgative
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www.patternsinstatic.com
http://www.blacklevelembassy.com/

I shall be returning to the 'office' on Tuesday 18th May, 2004.
Thank you for stopping by. I appreciate your concern for my well-being.
xJ

sorry in paris...

anyone who wants to hook up tomorrow and come drink with me feel free...

xJ

nobody likes me...

everybody hates me...
think i'll go eat worms...

because no-body leaves me comments any more, or maybe you're just all sick of my bullshit drivel huh?

Yeh probably the latter.

I've been trying to think of things to post that interest me or that are not this whining bollocks, but it consumes so much of my head at the moment, I can't help it.

Had a radiothon meeting just then in planning for our Annual Subscriber-Drive (this year in August, stay tuned)... we have some good ideas. Every year it becomes more trial and error, eventually we'll perfect it I'm sure. It's definately come a long way since I started 10 years ago.

Yes, this is my tenth year in community radio *takes a bow*. That time has gone so quickly, but so much has happened in those ten years as well... I can't believe it.

*insert reminiscent music here*

oh dear, my head is starting to hurt. I'd advise I stay away from the computer for a while.

ciao.
xJ

An-udda questionaire...

If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be?
Ooh tough. I couldn't say. Let me check out the Greek coastline, and get back to you...

What is your favourite article of clothing?
Seriously! This is hard already... erm, new mermaid skirt kind of kicks arse!

Favourite physical features?
can this include hair? I like my hair.

What's the last CD you bought?
The World of Frankie Vaughan!!!

Where are your favourite places to be?
At radio, the botanic gardens, on my bicycle, the rhino room.

Where's your least favourite place to be?
At work I suppose. I could be doing something more constructive like cooking or reading!! (though I must admit, I snuck in nearly an entire novel @ work the other week, *shh*)

What's your favourite place to be massaged?
My back, but it has to be a proper massage.

What time do you wake up in the morning?
Between 6:20 + 6:40am.

What's your favourite kitchen appliance?
Erm, da stoveus dat cookens da cookies!

What makes you really angry?
I agree Sharn, Eddie McGuire! You suck dix mate! (not you sharn, eddie!!)

If you could play any instrument, what would it be?
Bass.

What do you think of Daniel Cox?
Who is Daniel Cox when he's at home?

Do you believe in an afterlife?
Yes, but I'm not sure which one...

What's your favourite childrens' book?
Richard Scarry books were always good.

What's your least-favourite chore?
Mopping the stairs, I still am a bit 'phobic' of falling down them...

No, really, what do you think of Daniel Cox?
No, no really, who in the what now?

If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
Metamorphasis... the ability to disappear and reappear in a much better destination!

Do you have a tattoo?
No.

Can you juggle?
Kind of, I'm still learning.

The one person from your past who you would go back and talk to?
Yep, I'll keep that one to myself.

What's in your car boot right now?
Boring things like oil and the ever popular melty tapes!

Which do you prefer, sushi or hamburger?
A little bit from column a, and a little bit from column b. As long as it's not from McDonalds because Mcdonalds is CANCER!

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
check files on persons who purchase guns will be destroyed by the... Stupid White Men, Michael Moore

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
Air. Damn, why can't there be a man there or something? Oh, that's right, I sent him to a gig. ;) Darn.

What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Miriam... unfortunately.

Without looking, guess what the time is:
9:48pm? Oops, I'm fully wrong it's past 10!

Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
10:21pm!! hehe.

When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
about 8:15pm. Got dropped off at the local chicken shop by my boss on his way home so i could make a salad + chicken wrap for meself.

Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
Wha'?

What did you dream last night?
I don't think dreams plagued me last night, thankfully. I gave up my crossing paths with people in dreams thing for now...

When did you last laugh?
I did laugh out loud at something, fuck knows what it was!

What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Monkey picture, my 'swinger' numberplate (beacause, obviously, i *so* am), a whale picture, my 'bootsale' picture that is great and i got for $3 or something, and the mirror amy gave me that i love.

What's the weirdest thing you've seen recently?
Girls with socks and stilettos! ewww...!!

What is the last movie you saw (cinema/DVD/tv)?
Kill Bill Volume 2, Awful Truth DVD, Scary Movie 2 on TV.

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
Tough one. I reckon, a new stereo with a new RECORD PLAYER attached to it, cos mine is broken!!

Tell us something about you that we don't know:
Heck, there's a lot of crap on here about me... erm, I like Britney Spears because she can do way more situps than me on a daily basis!

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you change?
Enough food and shelter for all with no weaponary of any sort.

Do you like to dance?
Fully!

Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Azalea Christine

Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I've not been good at boy names... perhaps Zedd.

How do you think our product could be improved to better address our customers' needs?
And this product of which you speak is... I know, it's bloody napisan isn't it? get off my doorstep!!

cut off my legs and call me shorty...

this week is going to be a doozy. I have responsibilities every day and night til Saturday when I shall simply shop the day away in Syd-e-ney.

My few favourite things in Sydney are:
1) Trovata's on Stanley Street - one of the tastiest places I've ever had the pleasure of eating at. Bravo tenthousand!
2) MCA - The Museum of Contemporary Art
3) The Big Carousel in Darling Harbour. I don't care how old you are. You should always get on it and make loud whooping and yeehaw noises like Shorty and I did one time. Fine holiday fun!
4) The Candle Shop + some pizza place @ the Rocks. I can never remember the name of the pizza place, but I can always find it (i'll let you know later).
5) Paddy's Market + Seconds shops - need I say more?

For those of you travelling to Sydney in the near future, that is my top 5!
The Sydney Aquarium in the Harbour comes a close #6. It's been such a long time since I've been to Sydney, it will be nice indeed, if only for a day!

I have calmed down a hell of a lot since my initial crazy reaction on Friday night. I mean, really, what am I going to do without my "therapist" around?! I guess, finally, stand alone. An interesting concept.

I don't know why I went to the person I went to on Saturday, but I kept my cool around them and managed to think and talk of other things, and left their company completely calmed. Intersting, because my friendship with this person is particularly complex.

Earlier that day I could barely speak without bursting into tears. I felt like I was going to vomit all day, gave myself a headache, and I also don't think I'd slept all that much. Talk about a kick in the guts! It winded me.

I don't know why it hurt so much, I guess because I'd finally decided to do something about spending more time with this person in other social settings *shrug*. I suppose the simplest answer is that I'll miss them dearly. It's not like they haven't left before, but the way our friendship has grown in the past 6-8 months has been very important to me, as I particularly revel in friendships that constantly develop and change. And whenever something else has crushed me he has been in the same familiar place for me to go get a hug *sigh*...

There is no point me being a cry-baby over it. After all the world is so small now, it's not like 800+ kilometres is far now is it?!

I have been thinking of starting another 'dedication' segment on my show relating to optimistic songs. I mean it's fine for me to rip everyones heart out each week with a love song (more like ripping out my own) but having an outline optimistic song would be kind of nice too.

I hope you all enjoyed the twangy-guitar BARRY MANILOW love song dedication last week! hehe.
xJ

what a weekend...

another thankyou to benjamin *kiss*...

Lawnmower Music: Three D Radio: Sundays 2-4pm: 93.7FM
(sorry by the way, i have recycled a few tracks from last week!! but i like them, so there!!)

Federico Aubele: Despertar
Sarah Vaughan: Whatever Lola Wants (Gotan Project Mix)
The Kinks: You really got me
Orbital: Crash + Carry
MKB: Monkey Business
Kronos Quartet: Miniskirt
Paris Combo: Attraction
LOVE SONG DEDICATION = Barry Manilow: I'm gonna sit right down and write myself a letter
G Love + Special Sauce: I Love You
Smokey Robinson + The Miracles: You've really got a hold on me
Richard Easton: Former (a new album, woohoo!)
Paper Tiger: Castle in the Sand
Ivy: Don't believe a word
Skalpel: 1958
Positive Black Soul: Run Cool
Brian Setzer: Rat Pack Boogie
Nina Simone: My baby just cares for me
Radiohead: Let Down
Cornelius: Drop (Kings of Convenience Mix)
Sia: Taken for granted
Billie Holiday: Strange Fruit (Tricky Remix)
The New Pollutants: Blast the world into space ("lets get rid of it it's all going to waste...")
Gotan Project: Last Tango in Paris
Marvin Gaye: Can I get a witness?
Elvis Costello: When green eyes turn blue
DeerHoof: Rainbow Silhouette
Franz Ferdinand: The dark side of the matinee
Scheer: Shea
Luke Ashby: Amber on the Downbeat

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY all the mothers, and especially mine. Love you.

Remember, to tell someone something nice about them every day... it will make them feel nice and you feel nice too.
Don't wait for a Hallmark Holiday in otherwords.

My record player is still broken (not that I've attempted to fix it) and I can't listen to my vinyl *pout*
AND I left Frankie @ Benjamins! What shall I do?! Argh!
Going down the road and picking it up would be a good start.
xJ

picking myself up off the floor...

(lost a post again, damn)

i feel like I'm falling apart.

My friend is going to leave in two weeks.

It hit me like a tonne of bricks falling on my head, SMACK!

"I don't want you to go!" I said...
"What am I supposed to do without you?" I said...
"Why?" I said... "you know me, get on a plane, go to London, get on a plane, go to Melbourne"
and so everyone who is trying to search for Shannon Noll finds my blog... "WHAT ABOUT ME?"

xJ

broken head...

so my broken head is broken... actually i think my back/neck is out and therefore it hurts like a bitch.

Today I was asked to join a Youth Reference Group for the Adelaide City Council, and I'm thrilled. It just turns out someone I haven't seen for a while, and met ages and ages ago at a Sundy Side Up, has been working with the Council for a few months and they are looking for input for a few new strategies. I look forward to seeing what they have in mind...

On other secret womens business... I am in the very beginning stages of possibly purchasing a City Business (providing a bank will come to the party)... more on that later...

I got tix for me and a friend to go to the Paris Combo. I look forward to it greatly.

"hey mama i just gotta celebrate..." - i *finally* purchased a Frankie Vaughan album. He is one of my favourite 50's Broadway types and did the film "Let's make Love" with Marilyn Monroe and Yves Montand (which I highly recommend by the way)... wow and it's so super excellent. I'm so glad I finally got it.

See this exhibition @ Modra Hayes Design, 92 Currie St for the next month or so... a blown glass exhibition by Peta Cowen Goh. They are nice pieces indeed.

xJ

gosh darnnit...

someone whom I feel is one of the most important people in my life today told me they are thinking of leaving soon...

if you find this... please, I don't want you to go...

xJ

1 million bux!!

sux to me not being shortlisted for Big Brother...!! that would have saved me having to tackle the corporate world next year on my quest to make the million bux...

It's just an idea you know... with the western countries the way they are, I kind of figure it can't be *that* hard to make a million dollars. What I'll do to try and make that much I'm not sure yet... but it can't be that hard... and if I actually manage to achieve it, a large portion will be used to take my very closest friends on a nice European holiday!

Shopped at HarbourTown yesterday... however it's not near a harbour, nor is it a town, so yeh, interesting choice of shopping complex name. Got some spunky red shoes that make me feel like I should be saying "theres no place like home", a mermaid skirt and a hoody jacket (with extra added faux fur of course)... still no new pants but I'll work on that in Sydney... damn to having a funny shaped body! but i guess everyone has trouble finding clothes sometimes...

I am still sad, yes, yes I am, but I'm not going to complain, because frankly no-one sympathises with a whiner.

Happy re-warmed house Dida...
xJ

Irreplaceable...

Lawnmower Music: Sundays 2-4pm: Three D Radio: 93.7FM

Cal Tjeder: Soul Sauce (Fila Brizilla Remix)
Paris Combo: Attraction
The Satellites: Last Drinks
Morcheeba: Tape Loop
The Funky Lowlives: Irreplaceable (Peckham Royalty remix)
Skalpel: Quiz
DJ Tr!p: Grungebitch
Clint Mansell (how do you m ake the character of Pii on this keyboard?)
INTERIM LOVE SONG DEDICATION: John Lennon: Oh Yoko!
The 5, 6, 7 8's: Woohoo!
Gotan Project: Vuelvo Al Sur
Wiley: Pies
MKB: Whoops
Genuine Electric Latin Love Machine
Kim Weston: Take me in your arms
Music vs Physics: Phantasmagori
Lovage: Strangers on a Train
Fatboy Slim: Weapon of Choice
ACTUAL LOVE SONG DEDICATION: Smokey Robinson + the Miracles: You've really got a hold on me
Origami: She's got the Rhythm V 3
Gemma Hayes: Over + Over
Big Brother + The Holding Company: Piece of my Heart
Baterz: Spidermother
Primal Scream: Come Together
Koolism: Stage Presence (wow, cool track!!)
Steve Burns: A Sniveling mess (yes, the blues clues guy!)
Handsome Boy Modellling School: The Projects (PJays)
Richie Hawtin + Sven Vath: Legowelt: Disco Rout

Thank the Lord for the All Music Guide!! Hallelujah!
xJ